Dear Tumblr. A year ago today, I sent my Love a special email.  See, through our whole relationship (even before I had a Tumblr account), I’d been sending him Dear Old Love links, because sadly, love letters to former loves made me somehow think of our star-crossed situation.  I had a habit of sending them along with long and rambly emails when I was traveling for work, tipsy and alone in hotel bars.  But this particular link…. well, as soon as I read it, I knew I had to save it for a special day. 

And that I did.  I embedded it in an email I’d had drafted for literally months (I started it in January 2010, and sent it in October 2010).  I kept re-reading and editing, trying to make sure that as soon as I was able to make it true, it would be perfect enough to send. And then… I made it true, and it was perfect enough, and with a lump in my throat, I pressed that send button a year ago. 

So here it is my friends. This is (most of) the email I wrote to let my Baby know that everything was finally in place, a date was set, and a one-way ticket was purchased to come and get me and drag me back across the country and home to him.  Sorry that I’ve had to modify or delete a bit of too-close-to-home info… hopefully the sappiness shines through all the same.

My Sweet Baby,

Over the last year, I’ve loved you from 2600 miles away. I’ve loved you from the turnpike in Jersey, the cobblestone streets of Boston, the airport lounge in Denver, and the seedy bars of Dallas. I’ve loved you from the scary prop-planes out of your hometown, the painful layovers in Cincinnati, my old bed at Mom’s, and my lonely hotel room in Atlanta. I’ve loved you, over and over again, through my memories of the city where we met — both trips now…..

Every day for the last year, you’ve been my first thought waking up, the comforting feeling in the back of my mind all day, and the last image in my head as I fall asleep at night. You’ve been with me the whole way.

This link was one of the very first posts I saw on this site, and I’ve been saving it all this time, just for this day:
http://dearoldlove.tumblr.com/post/134747206

D, I am ready to love you from right beside of you.  Come and snatch me up.  I do not want to live without you —anywhere— anymore.

Love,
C

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